[00:02.32]Now look here, in the house opposite
[00:04.72]Black gate posts with a concrete frog squatting on top of it
[00:07.92]Through the hallway
[00:10.10]Ancient wallpaper
[00:11.53]Nicotine gold
[00:13.08]Up the stairs, rickety
[00:14.65]Loaded with history
[00:16.07]Here in the top flat
[00:18.83]Flowers on the windowsill
[00:20.22]Little breeze fluttering the petals as they stare out
[00:23.32]At the city streets
[00:26.39]Gemma is awake
[00:28.67]What woke her?
[00:30.00]Open eyes
[00:30.93]Street lights float slowly through broken blinds
[00:34.34]She watches
[00:35.10]As the light plays across the tattered carpet
[00:38.76]And she holds herself tight in the room's half darkness
[00:41.23]It's cold
[00:42.41]She wedges her hands underneath her armpits
[00:46.11]It's 4:18
[00:49.08]And Gemma's thinking
[00:52.39]Before I was a adult
[00:54.35]I was a little wreck
[00:55.86]Peddling whatever I could get my grubby mitts on
[00:58.56]Ketamine for beakfast
[00:59.86]Bad girls were drinking with
[01:01.21]I gave 'em puppy dog eyes for the acid on their fingertips
[01:03.66]Heads in the basement
[01:05.49]Lips without faces
[01:07.42]Getting faced in, half-baked in a bakery
[01:08.91]Eating pastries
[01:10.10]Desperate for a body who could save me
[01:11.95]But I never really wondered what they gave me
[01:14.76]Always wanted something else
[01:16.23]Sweating in the door queue
[01:17.29]Spittin' like a villain in the pantomime old shoes
[01:19.80]Bad teeth
[01:20.83]Drinking in the rain with my ghost
[01:22.20]Sitting in the back of the class, comatose
[01:24.39]Uh, feelings on my back in the dark
[01:26.89]Hold me close
[01:27.68]But you never held
[01:28.69]I did some things I swore I'd never tell
[01:30.66]'Til that night you tried to kill me
[01:31.96]Run me down with your car in the snow
[01:33.00]I didn't realize I thought you would go
[01:35.58]Every day I live lives in the day I wake up in
[01:38.47]My dreams are all screaming 'Oh ****!
[01:40.18]But I'm fine now
[01:41.29]Something remains its still pulling me
[01:43.12]Yeah my future is bright but my past tryin' to ruin me
[01:46.26]Tried to change it but I know
[01:48.88]If you're good to me I will let you go
[01:52.10]Tried to fight it but I'm sure
[01:54.20]If you're bad to me I will like you more
[01:57.36]I saw some things when I was young
[01:58.96]That made me who I would become
[01:59.80]I fill them with me everyday
[02:01.03]'Cause if you try and run away
[02:02.37]They run beside you place for place
[02:03.96]Trip you up and drag your face
[02:05.09]Freedom out of every waste
[02:06.35]They chancing every bit of taste
[02:07.61]Heart is sprayed up with the names of all my friends who lost their way
[02:10.27]Doesn't change it all remains
[02:11.81]It takes my strength and gives me shame
[02:12.98]All I want is someone great
[02:14.52]To make me everything I ain't
[02:15.52]But the only ones for me
[02:17.05]Are the ones that shouldn't be
[02:18.31]Even though I'm doing good
[02:19.74]I'm working hard, my work is strong
[02:21.04]Might be fun just for a while to go back to where my hurt is from
[02:23.57]Rinse myself through emptiness
[02:25.11]and push my body close to anybody who can recognize the presence of my ghost
[02:27.81]Tried to change it but I know
[02:31.53]If you're good to me I will let you go
[02:34.64]Tried to fight it but I'm sure
[02:36.83]If you're bad to me I will like you more
[02:39.62]Tried to change it but I know
[02:42.05]If you're good to me I will let you go
[02:45.02]Tried to fight it but I'm sure
[02:47.36]If you're bad to me I will like you more

Now look here, in the house opposite
Black gate posts with a concrete frog squatting on top of it
Through the hallway
Ancient wallpaper
Nicotine gold
Up the stairs, rickety
Loaded with history
Here in the top flat
Flowers on the windowsill
Little breeze fluttering the petals as they stare out
At the city streets
Gemma is awake
What woke her?
Open eyes
Street lights float slowly through broken blinds
She watches
As the light plays across the tattered carpet
And she holds herself tight in the room's half darkness
It's cold
She wedges her hands underneath her armpits
It's 4:18
And Gemma's thinking
Before I was a adult
I was a little wreck
Peddling whatever I could get my grubby mitts on
Ketamine for beakfast
Bad girls were drinking with
I gave 'em puppy dog eyes for the acid on their fingertips
Heads in the basement
Lips without faces
Getting faced in, half-baked in a bakery
Eating pastries
Desperate for a body who could save me
But I never really wondered what they gave me
Always wanted something else
Sweating in the door queue
Spittin' like a villain in the pantomime old shoes
Bad teeth
Drinking in the rain with my ghost
Sitting in the back of the class, comatose
Uh, feelings on my back in the dark
Hold me close
But you never held
I did some things I swore I'd never tell
'Til that night you tried to kill me
Run me down with your car in the snow
I didn't realize I thought you would go
Every day I live lives in the day I wake up in
My dreams are all screaming 'Oh ****!
But I'm fine now
Something remains its still pulling me
Yeah my future is bright but my past tryin' to ruin me
Tried to change it but I know
If you're good to me I will let you go
Tried to fight it but I'm sure
If you're bad to me I will like you more
I saw some things when I was young
That made me who I would become
I fill them with me everyday
'Cause if you try and run away
They run beside you place for place
Trip you up and drag your face
Freedom out of every waste
They chancing every bit of taste
Heart is sprayed up with the names of all my friends who lost their way
Doesn't change it all remains
It takes my strength and gives me shame
All I want is someone great
To make me everything I ain't
But the only ones for me
Are the ones that shouldn't be
Even though I'm doing good
I'm working hard, my work is strong
Might be fun just for a while to go back to where my hurt is from
Rinse myself through emptiness
and push my body close to anybody who can recognize the presence of my ghost
Tried to change it but I know
If you're good to me I will let you go
Tried to fight it but I'm sure
If you're bad to me I will like you more
Tried to change it but I know
If you're good to me I will let you go
Tried to fight it but I'm sure
If you're bad to me I will like you more