[00:00.98]Remember them days i was hitting licks
[00:02.78]Just to keep all the lights on?
[00:04.32]Whole time they was saying i wasn't shit
[00:06.12]But at least we survived, huh?
[00:08.02]16 when i dropped out of highschool
[00:09.66]When all of our bills was past due
[00:11.81]Promise i'd get us a bag soon
[00:13.45]So i did what i did cuz i had to
[00:15.30]
[00:15.60]If you looked at me wrong i was bad news
[00:17.44]Kept a tool i was ready to use it
[00:18.93]Demon mode we on go, i was used to
[00:20.69]Living a life i was ready to lose, shit
[00:23.18]Then i thought about my mama
[00:24.25]If i kept it up then we wouldn't
[00:25.64]Have a roof and i knew it
[00:26.92]So i swore to myself to stop with the **** shit
[00:29.08]And focused on making the music
[00:30.53]
[00:30.82]Stayed up every night just to make it work
[00:32.68]For better or worse
[00:33.78]Laid up every night thinking about my worth
[00:36.52]And repressing the hurt
[00:37.61]Started believing that happiness was
[00:39.96]Something i ain't deserve
[00:41.45]So i made it a goal to flex on the world
[00:43.70]Before i leave this earth
[00:44.49]
[00:45.46]I done bid farewell to all the
[00:48.19]Feelings that i bottled
[00:49.64]Ghost inside a shell
[00:51.09]After all these pills i swallowed
[00:53.38]If you couldn't tell by now
[00:55.32]I ain't no ****ing idol
[00:57.37]This a cry for help-
[00:58.82]Think i've always been a lost soul
[01:01.06]
[01:01.65]Dealt with all this trauma
[01:02.95]That i bottled up with bottles
[01:04.46]Knowing it won't help
[01:06.35]Is the hardest pill to swallow
[01:08.09]Wanna ask myself- have i
[01:10.53]Always been this hollow?
[01:12.05]Don't know where to go,
[01:13.69]Yeah i've always been a lost soul
[01:15.84]
[01:18.67]Hollup wait a minute
[01:20.07]Fast forward now i'm winning
[01:21.82]Still i feel so vacant, damn
[01:23.92]All of these bands i been spending
[01:25.62]Both of my wrist probably 20
[01:27.15]Still getting drunk off the henny
[01:28.61]Pockets are full but i'm empty
[01:29.95]And that's on depression
[01:30.79]When i'm under pressure,
[01:31.59]I tend to do better
[01:32.40]But all of this stress
[01:33.25]Will leave me on the stretcher
[01:34.30]My friends wanna help me
[01:35.20]But i never let em
[01:35.98]If anyone tries them
[01:36.95]I'll probably kill them
[01:37.98]That goes for my shorty
[01:38.94]And everyone close to me
[01:39.82]On my life i'm willing to die
[01:42.02]And if i do, it's no need to cry
[01:43.67]I'm with my brothers on the other side
[01:45.71]
[01:46.31]Nah i'm trippin
[01:47.72]Maybe i just really miss em
[01:49.71]But i promised to keep on living
[01:51.35]Ain't done with my mission
[01:52.39]Until i'm getting these millions
[01:53.65]And let em know who do it the best
[01:55.06]Never fold, keep my foot on they necks
[01:56.97]Stay focused on getting a check
[01:58.68]I be praying that they never test me cuz...
[02:01.23]
[02:01.41]I done bid farewell to all the
[02:02.86]Feelings that i bottled
[02:04.71]Ghost inside a shell
[02:05.90]After all these pills i swallowed
[02:08.06]If you couldn't tell by now
[02:10.39]I ain't no ****ing idol
[02:12.18]This a cry for help-
[02:13.85]Think i've always been a lost soul
[02:16.67]
[02:16.66]Dealt with all this trauma
[02:17.61]That i bottled up with bottles
[02:19.51]Knowing it won't help
[02:21.15]Is the hardest pill to swallow
[02:23.25]Wanna ask myself- have i
[02:25.60]Always been this hollow?
[02:27.33]Don't know where to go,
[02:28.75]Yeah i've always been a lost soul

Remember them days i was hitting licks
Just to keep all the lights on?
Whole time they was saying i wasn't shit
But at least we survived, huh?
16 when i dropped out of highschool
When all of our bills was past due
Promise i'd get us a bag soon
So i did what i did cuz i had to
If you looked at me wrong i was bad news
Kept a tool i was ready to use it
Demon mode we on go, i was used to
Living a life i was ready to lose, shit
Then i thought about my mama
If i kept it up then we wouldn't
Have a roof and i knew it
So i swore to myself to stop with the **** shit
And focused on making the music
Stayed up every night just to make it work
For better or worse
Laid up every night thinking about my worth
And repressing the hurt
Started believing that happiness was
Something i ain't deserve
So i made it a goal to flex on the world
Before i leave this earth
I done bid farewell to all the
Feelings that i bottled
Ghost inside a shell
After all these pills i swallowed
If you couldn't tell by now
I ain't no ****ing idol
This a cry for help-
Think i've always been a lost soul
Dealt with all this trauma
That i bottled up with bottles
Knowing it won't help
Is the hardest pill to swallow
Wanna ask myself- have i
Always been this hollow?
Don't know where to go,
Yeah i've always been a lost soul
Hollup wait a minute
Fast forward now i'm winning
Still i feel so vacant, damn
All of these bands i been spending
Both of my wrist probably 20
Still getting drunk off the henny
Pockets are full but i'm empty
And that's on depression
When i'm under pressure,
I tend to do better
But all of this stress
Will leave me on the stretcher
My friends wanna help me
But i never let em
If anyone tries them
I'll probably kill them
That goes for my shorty
And everyone close to me
On my life i'm willing to die
And if i do, it's no need to cry
I'm with my brothers on the other side
Nah i'm trippin
Maybe i just really miss em
But i promised to keep on living
Ain't done with my mission
Until i'm getting these millions
And let em know who do it the best
Never fold, keep my foot on they necks
Stay focused on getting a check
I be praying that they never test me cuz...
I done bid farewell to all the
Feelings that i bottled
Ghost inside a shell
After all these pills i swallowed
If you couldn't tell by now
I ain't no ****ing idol
This a cry for help-
Think i've always been a lost soul
Dealt with all this trauma
That i bottled up with bottles
Knowing it won't help
Is the hardest pill to swallow
Wanna ask myself- have i
Always been this hollow?
Don't know where to go,
Yeah i've always been a lost soul